I love my brother! He is the best! Anyone who put up with the torment and torture that I put him through is a true angel! As I watch my children grow up, I can’t stop thinking of how I would love to go back and change our childhood. I was such a rotten snot! He was such a sweetheart…still is, even after the anguish I exposed him to.
I could guilt that boy into doing anything for me. His kind nature, and curious personality left him vulnerable to my tattling ways. I would catch him doing something that he wasn’t supposed to be doing and would hold it over his head for weeks, even months, until he of course, did something bigger and better for me to add to my list of bribery.
Many times, if he had of just confessed to be curious, and realize that my parents probably wouldn’t have cared as much as he thought they would, he wouldn’t had to be subjected to my torment. He could have come clean to my parents and realize that my parents are very forgiving parents, and his punishment would have been a blessing not a curse.
Being a parent now, I realize that the love a parent has for their child is far beyond any reasonable explanation. I would love my children no matter what they did. Everyone makes mistakes, and everyone has to make mistakes to be formed into what they are supposed to be.
We are no different. We are all guilty of making the wrong choices. Nobody is perfect. It is the choice of what we do with that guilt that will make our break us. Just like the choice my brother did with his guilt. He let me manipulate him into crazy things just so that my parents wouldn’t find out. We too manipulate ourselves into extreme measures of guilt that can actually hurt us physically and mentally.
If people only realized that once we confess our sins to our Heavenly Father he forgives us instantly. Then we have to learn to let the guilt go. We have to understand how forgiving our God is, and how we also have to forgive ourselves. Guilt can poison our souls.
I love Romans 8:1. It explains how wonderful our God is as it explains, “There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” How true. Once we turn to God, he forgives our every mistake. Now, we have to learn to forgive ourselves of our mistakes.
Our lives would be much freer if we would just learn to forgive ourselves from the wrongs that we have made, just like God forgives us. We don’t want to carry the guilt of our wrong choice for years and years. We have to let them go. Meditation is a great way to free our minds of this ridicule that we litter upon ourselves. Give it a try and see how it frees your mind from the torment that we bring upon ourselves, just like I did my brother.