Mother’s Day Weekend Ladies! This Mother’s Day, I get to spend it at the Eastern Gymnastics Championships, in Ontario with my amazing daughter! Not just as mother, but as her coach as well. I’m very excited to share this experience with her, as any mother would be. At the same time, my heart is torn because on this special weekend I am away from my home. I’m not with my son or my husband. Her sport takes her and I in one direction and his sport takes him and his father in another direction. And so it is.
This has been our lives for many years now, and at first I found it very hard. Especially on my ego. The ego hates change, and makes you complain about your situation, which I was very famous for. I would complain that we were being separated as a family; that I had to miss my son’s sports; that I couldn’t be everywhere at once. My ego was up and running at full speed.
As our lives were changing, and our children were growing up, my ego was in full swing. It started fixating on certain areas of my life, trying to make sure it was in control of every little detail that I had control over. While my ego was hard at work, relationships in my life started to feel the strain, and things in my life started to crumble around me before my very eyes. My ego had me convince to think that my happiness was in my family. In my accomplishments. In monetary things of life. That my contentment was being separated as our family was pulled in different directions.
Over time and educating myself, I became aware of my ego and the damage that it is capable of in my life. I had to abandon my ego and make many changes within myself and my family. I had to evolve as a human if you will. I had to make many conscious adjustments, and our relationships became a work in progress. Every human and relationship has to evolve. As I think about myself as a mother, man—have I ever evolved. When I look back at myself as a wife, again, I’ve grown immensely. All relationships have to change as you grow as mortal beings, that is the life of a human, but the ego hates change and will fight you every step of the way.
In A Course in Miracles it says, “The ego will therefore distort love, and teach you that love really calls forth the responses the ego can teach. Follow its teachings, then, and you will search for love, but you will not recognize it.”
It also continues on to says, “You will undertake a journey because you are not at home in this world. And you will search for your home whether you realize where it is or not. If you believe it is outside you the search will be futile, for you will be seeking it where it is not. You do not remember how to look within you for you do not believe your home is there. Yet the Holy Spirit remembers it for you, and He will guide you to your home because that is His mission. As He fulfills His mission He will teach you yours, for your mission is the same as His. By hiding your brother home you are but following Him.”
How many of us search and search and search to find love? All we want is to be loved to our cores? Find this unconditional love that has been explained to us in Fairy Tales? This love that we think we deserve? This love that will change our lives forever? This love that is pure bliss and makes our lives complete? Why are we searching? It is right inside of us all along.
The Universe has already given us everything we need to have the unconditional love we deserve—right inside of us. The Divine Source has already given us a love that will change our lives forever—right inside of us. Our Creator gave us everything necessary to make our lives complete—right inside of us.
It’s time to realize that we have all been seeking for love outside of us, where it isn’t! I’m guilty of it! I thought my husband was supposed to bring me this love. I thought my children would supply me this love. I was sure all my dreams would come true if I just worked hard enough at things. But, in reality, all the love I needed was right inside of me.
Mother’s Day isn’t about your children showering you with love and affection. It isn’t about your husband showing your how much he appreciates all you do for his children. Sure, it helps, but the only thing you have to remember is that unconditional love that was given to you by the Holy Spirit and let him guide you home to that love. I might be in Ontario, but I know that inside my home, lies all the love that I will ever need. The love I have for myself.
You will never fully be able to love someone else until you finally arrive home to this love inside of yourself. On this Mother’s Day weekend, please, give yourself a gift. Go deep within and find the unconditional love that awaits for you when you finally let the ego go, and visit the place that will make your heart sing and your soul dance. Your true inner self. Your home forever! I promise, you will need nothing else!